Post by Ryohei on Oct 9, 2003 11:52:23 GMT 10
I hate poetry at times. heres one of the few things youll ever get from me
What's in My head?
I lay up night, thinking and pondering
But i know it's not becuase of fright
What will happen tomorrow
What has happened today
All these things, they ravel through my mind
I want to know everything
Yet i want to know nothing at all
My thought they ruin my life
They ruin my very being
They bring me down mroe then anything
And ruin my happy feelings
At night when one is awake
IT seems so cold and alone
The darkness seems to envelop thee
Abnd the coldness isnt slow to follow
It hurts to be inside, It hurts so much to think
To think of things that could have been
and to think of the things that will be
The decision you make in one simple day
Were they the right or the wrong ones
Did you handle it to the best
Or did you ruin it for the both of you
What did you do that was so bad
Why must their be a misunderstanding
Now im awake in bed
Thinking of all the wrong i've done
I don't know what to do
I don't know what to say
I know how you feel inside
Yet i can't do a thing to help
I don't know how to say im sorry
sorry for all those things i've done
I know you've felt bad for them
Becuase I've felt the same
I felt awful, my soul tearing to peices
LIke a part of me is gone
Like a part of me is destroyed
It seems like life won't go one
It seems like nothing will ever be the same again
For i always hurt the ones i love
And i can never make amends
I take the pain in myself
become bitter to everyone else
I feel so empty inside
I feel so souless inside
What can i do
What can i say
I don't want to continue on
I just want to edn it
I want to die
I want you to forget me
Iwant you to forget you ever heard my name
Maybe that way it would all be
Maybe this way you could live on life
Maybe this way you could be happier
By never knowing me then perhaps you could have been happier
I've only been a hindrance
I've only been a liability
never being to help
Always standing by and watching you in Pain
What can i do?
How can i help?
I don't really know anymore
I dont know anything anymore
I lay up at night thinking these things
Never knowing what to think next
Am i right for you?
Was it worth it to get to know you?
Perhaps i should have left you that one time
Perhaps we should not have returned to each other
Perhaps i would have been happier
Perhaps you would have been as well
I will never know
I cannot change the past
Sometimes i can't please you
As much as i want to
Perhaps i love you mroe then freind
perhaps i dont
Either way i think of you
Night after night
Each night it could be the same
Another something different
How to make you happy
How to make you like me
Sometimes i wish i ahd the anwsers to my problems but i never do
I fear facing you tomorrow
I fear seeing you again
I dont know how it will go
Nor do i know how it will end
Will it be happy?
Will it be sad?
Will it be nothing at all?
Either way i have no idea
Either way i do not know at alll
Either way i see it i try to think
Of how it will happen
Why can't i decide what to do
Why do i have to be so indecisive
you gave me a chopice and i can't take it
becuase etiher way someone gets hurt
I woudl rather hurt myself then another
I woudl rather kill myself then hurt another
I don't want to cuase pain to anyone
I just want to be accepeted
I want to feel like im aprt of soemthing
i want to feel like i belong
I only want to feel the warmth of freindship and compassion
I want to experiance this
I want to feel the warmth of love
I want to feel that feeling of being wanted
Like life couldnt go on without you
Not that it it quickens without you
When you said thsoe words to me i shrugged them
But they really hurt me inside
Hurt me to much
Hurt me so badly that i can't take them away from me
You gave me hope at one time
But that hope turned to doubts
Which made me think of wether it was right
wether im right for you
Wether this is right at all
I dont know what to do anymore
I dont know what to think
I can't get these crazy thoughts out of my head
I cant contorl them anymore
I am going insane from them
Even my sleep is restless
But i continue and the enxt day i wake up
And continue these thoughts once more
As the night approaches me again
What's in My head?
I lay up night, thinking and pondering
But i know it's not becuase of fright
What will happen tomorrow
What has happened today
All these things, they ravel through my mind
I want to know everything
Yet i want to know nothing at all
My thought they ruin my life
They ruin my very being
They bring me down mroe then anything
And ruin my happy feelings
At night when one is awake
IT seems so cold and alone
The darkness seems to envelop thee
Abnd the coldness isnt slow to follow
It hurts to be inside, It hurts so much to think
To think of things that could have been
and to think of the things that will be
The decision you make in one simple day
Were they the right or the wrong ones
Did you handle it to the best
Or did you ruin it for the both of you
What did you do that was so bad
Why must their be a misunderstanding
Now im awake in bed
Thinking of all the wrong i've done
I don't know what to do
I don't know what to say
I know how you feel inside
Yet i can't do a thing to help
I don't know how to say im sorry
sorry for all those things i've done
I know you've felt bad for them
Becuase I've felt the same
I felt awful, my soul tearing to peices
LIke a part of me is gone
Like a part of me is destroyed
It seems like life won't go one
It seems like nothing will ever be the same again
For i always hurt the ones i love
And i can never make amends
I take the pain in myself
become bitter to everyone else
I feel so empty inside
I feel so souless inside
What can i do
What can i say
I don't want to continue on
I just want to edn it
I want to die
I want you to forget me
Iwant you to forget you ever heard my name
Maybe that way it would all be
Maybe this way you could live on life
Maybe this way you could be happier
By never knowing me then perhaps you could have been happier
I've only been a hindrance
I've only been a liability
never being to help
Always standing by and watching you in Pain
What can i do?
How can i help?
I don't really know anymore
I dont know anything anymore
I lay up at night thinking these things
Never knowing what to think next
Am i right for you?
Was it worth it to get to know you?
Perhaps i should have left you that one time
Perhaps we should not have returned to each other
Perhaps i would have been happier
Perhaps you would have been as well
I will never know
I cannot change the past
Sometimes i can't please you
As much as i want to
Perhaps i love you mroe then freind
perhaps i dont
Either way i think of you
Night after night
Each night it could be the same
Another something different
How to make you happy
How to make you like me
Sometimes i wish i ahd the anwsers to my problems but i never do
I fear facing you tomorrow
I fear seeing you again
I dont know how it will go
Nor do i know how it will end
Will it be happy?
Will it be sad?
Will it be nothing at all?
Either way i have no idea
Either way i do not know at alll
Either way i see it i try to think
Of how it will happen
Why can't i decide what to do
Why do i have to be so indecisive
you gave me a chopice and i can't take it
becuase etiher way someone gets hurt
I woudl rather hurt myself then another
I woudl rather kill myself then hurt another
I don't want to cuase pain to anyone
I just want to be accepeted
I want to feel like im aprt of soemthing
i want to feel like i belong
I only want to feel the warmth of freindship and compassion
I want to experiance this
I want to feel the warmth of love
I want to feel that feeling of being wanted
Like life couldnt go on without you
Not that it it quickens without you
When you said thsoe words to me i shrugged them
But they really hurt me inside
Hurt me to much
Hurt me so badly that i can't take them away from me
You gave me hope at one time
But that hope turned to doubts
Which made me think of wether it was right
wether im right for you
Wether this is right at all
I dont know what to do anymore
I dont know what to think
I can't get these crazy thoughts out of my head
I cant contorl them anymore
I am going insane from them
Even my sleep is restless
But i continue and the enxt day i wake up
And continue these thoughts once more
As the night approaches me again