~Shy Kitten~
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Post by ~Shy Kitten~ on Dec 20, 2003 14:05:36 GMT 10
Well it's not all true and no I would never do that even if I wanted too lol but....most of them are true and how I feel but that one I have no idea what part of me that came out of lol
In this dream
in this dream I ley there hopeless and defeated and needed i'm bloody and feel pain and i'm stuck in the rain i've lost my mind and gone insane and right now theirs too much pain inside my heart and my head and I just might be dead and i'm crying and dieing so I crawl hoping to find you now what do I do but then i'm in a grassy place then I see your face you run to meand hold me in your arms and your in shock and while I say my last words you give me a kiss because I will be something you'll miss.
Your perfect(in every way)
your so perfect in every way I just wish we could runaway your hair is as dark as night and right now your holding me tight and you say everything I wish I did and sometimes you act like a cute little kid and you taaste as sweet as candy because your my husband, andy.
The way you make me feel
the way you make me feel could make a sick person heal it's something so great that it's fate and the way you hold my hand makes me smile for quite awhile for the way you make me feel makes me kneel for I feel so out of place sometimes but for you i'm gonna try and make this ryme for I love you so much that I would faint from your touch.
Love is in the air
love is in the air and it looks as though I should share for the second I see you I don't know what to do I try and hide but then I find out that your by my side for love is in the air but even if it wasn't I would still be in love with you forever.
We have to talk
i'm sick and tiered of waiting to see you and even though I like you alot I can't go on like this so we have to talk and you may not want to but who cares about what you want this is what I need and if we break up i'll cry you may or ma not care but I need this talk because we have to talk.
I hate this
I hate waiting for youto grow up and I hate having to shutup and I hate waiting for you to see that i'm still here because the way you don't even pay attention to me isn't fair and I hate thinking of you and wish of what could happen and your just off playing with your friends laughn' I hate this and maybe when we break up i'll be something that your heart will miss because you know what I hate this.
Bye bye boyfriend
I sit here alone and depressed so then I get undressed I take my bath and think for awhile of how I used to smile and how i've been frowning because of you and now I know what to do so bye bye boyfriend.
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I lay here in my bed thinking about all of the things that I said did I really mean to say them to you was it the right thing to do I cry every now and then because I don't even know when why did you change what is so wrong that you can't even tell me maybe we just weren't ment to be but I don't believe that and you would even protect me from a rat but I guess it was all lie's like when you said you love me how was I to see what did I do to make you this way cause rite now I just want to runaway did you mean everything you said cause right now i'm depressed and confused on my bed I cry at night and try not to think of you but what is it that I can do I make alot of efforts and you can but wont I ask you why and you say cause you don't this isn't fair your breaking my heart into two but theirs alot you can do but why don't you even try maybe it's cause those two weeks just flew by people say that I can move on but it's not that easy they don't know what it's like to be me they don't cry over a soon to be lost boyfriend they only see the outside and what they want to see but they don't see how hard this is on me my heart breaks at the thought of him and when I hear his voice and I hate how he lied or maybe he didn't maybe he just wasn't ready for LOVE yet or maybe he made a bet but thats not like him ofcourse what is the real him cause I thought I knew but right now i'm so blue and he was the cutest guy i've ever had as a boyfriend but something happened and I don't know what either so right now the ball is in his court and hopefully we stay together.
Why do I have to be to mature?
Why do I have to be so mature why do I have to have a boyfriend i'm only 14 yet I act like i'm older but why cause this is what happens breakups and shake ups I wish I could be a kid yet now it's too late now but maybe someday I can be a kid again so....who knows.
I look back
I look back at how it was and how it made me buz I look at the letters you used to send me and seeing how sad this is making me be I stay in my room and cry and mope wishing that I had hope and right now i'm hanging by one finger as my heart starts to linger then I think did you ever really love me cause this is killing me don't you see you don't think about my feelings at all instead you let me fall in love with you and all of that and right now I need a pat but maybe someday i'll get over you untill then I don't know what to do but I wish you would leave from my mind because I need to leave you behind you used to make me feel so special but now..why? it's not because your shy i've tried so hard to be with you yet i'm still alone when i'm with you it feels like i'm a drone you mention me to your friends yet you don't call and I wonder if it's something for you to stall but as I look back I see all of the things that I lack because you weren't there.
Happy Again
I tried calling you but you weren't there and normally that I would think isn't fair and yeah I may look back at how things used to be but right now i'm being the real me and one day your gonna look back at something you had but thats just too bad cause i'm happy again so goodbye so called "boyfriend" of mine cause now I know i'm gonna be fine cause i'm happy again.
Waisting my time
i'm tiered of the way you treat me so then I guess this is the end but maybe someday you can be my friend but it just seems like i'm waisting my time and no it's not like you did some kind of crime but now is goodbye so...lets leave it at that *sigh*.
Your angel has flown away
You say you love me and I was your angel that was sad but now your angel has flown away and she may be just a little mad and it night be because of you and then again it might not be but it's not like you were there and it's not like you love me cause thats a load of bull but i'm getting over you bit by bit at every chance I get.
That smile
that smile is back girl cause you've got it back ofcourse it was something that you had because it was something of lack so don't cry and don't sigh cause you've always got that smile.
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Post by Chibi Jen on Dec 21, 2003 9:23:33 GMT 10
Within these poems...there is a mixture of love, hate, anger, and happiness ^_^ I guess, these were all written in different times hey? I can kind of picture out who you're talking about, for different situations.
I found the poem 'Your Perfect (in every way)' interesting. You're talking about Andy, and most people wouldn't know who he is ^^;; Well, as long as he read it ^_^ Keep writing poems. ;D
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Post by ~Shy Kitten~ on Dec 21, 2003 19:27:58 GMT 10
heehee*giggling* yeah that was about him and yes they were all written at different times
Her last call to him
she picks up the phone knowing that she's going to be alone she tries her hardest to keep it all together when he will stay in her mind forever she call's but then it's done yet the times she had with him were so fun but she had to tell him this and he's so blind that she wont be something he'll miss she holds back the tears inspite out of all her fears she was in love and so was he except he didn't know how to exspress them for her to see so she makes her call her last call to him.
These tears of ice
these tears of ice have not made me very nice they stream down my face and they always get reminded from the same place my heart is telling me not to love again because of this pain so here comes the drops from my tears for your walking away because of your fears but are you really happy that you said okay for these tears of ice are something I wish not to stay.
Winter with my friends
the snow is a pretty sight and to have winter with my friends is such a delight having snowball fights with shy mystery on my side and A21 with a new ride theirs nothing like having a winter with my fiends and even if it's on the weekends.
Have fun and have joy
Have happieness and no tears have your loved one's by your side, have no fears have a kiss and your blanket beside you and be sure of what to do so have fun and have joy and I hope santa gets you your toy.
Promised love
you said you loved me but now I see cause you don't see me and you don't love me because it was nothing but promised love cause right now I want all of the above and even though you said you ment it it was always gonna be something that I couldn't get.
Kiss me under the mistletoe
Kiss me under the mistletoe then wrap me up in a bow laugh and have fun but don't think that we're done you haven't kissed me just yet because this kiss is something I get.
A Voice
I hear a voice quite similar to yours but I don't cry but their's something about that guy but once I hear that voice it sounds like someone I once knew someone who had made me happy and then blue someone that made me cry and sigh but your voice it's different some how yet once I saw your face I knew it wasn't him and maybe I should stop thinking of what could have happened and what could have been because all I hear is the last time I heard his voice.
I'm alone again
what was the point of saying yes i'd be with you probably because their was nothing else to do but why can't someone just be with me and then they would see but i'm alone again and i'm lost in the rain trying to get away from this pain my friends try to help and what they say helps but then doesn't cause I dawn on the fact that i'm alone again.
Your hard to get over
I think i'm sad I think I need a dad I think that this is hard hard to deal with and to get over and you don't even care and it wasn't fair we never kissed and we never did anything maybe to you it was a fling BUT!!! I wanted to kiss under the mistletoe and I wanted to be with you for a long time and you don't even know that..... your hard to get over.
I Love Christmas
it's my favorite time of the year it's the one day that I wont fear it's waking up with such a feeling in your heart and it's something I can't wait to start because I just love this day so please......come and stay for this is a special holiday.
With You
hold me tight as we snuggle up to eachother by the fire for this is what I desire and we'll drink hot co co as santa comes down the chimney and says Ho Ho Ho and as I hold your hand this is something I demand for you to bend on one knee just for me because I love being with you and i'm guessing thats something you knew.
Why can't I tell you
why can't I tell you how I feel maybe because I need time to heal but how long will you wait cause I don't want to be to late and I want to tell you but I don't know how and what if you don't like me now why can't I tell you maybe it's something I have to do because I have feelings for you because you knew when I was sad and weak when I was down and bleak when I would cry you would call cause you mean more than a friend to me after all.
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I want to say i'm not hurt but I am I also need attention from guys instead of always saying my goodbyes I want to say I like you more than a friend yet for some reason I can't atleast not just yet and this may be something I don't even get but I have to get over this because I felt so betrayed by you and now I don't know what in the hell i'm going to do.
The Trouble with love
the trouble with love is it can bring you to your knee's it can make you say please it makes you fall for that one guy or girl and it makes you so happy that you just want to twirl and you get this feeling all around you and you don't know what it is but it's not making you blue but it can also make you cry and sigh and sometimes it makes you say goodbye and it makes you believe a lie and your heart just wont understand that everything it's going through is by your command and love sometimes is already there and when somebody they love you and don't even mean it you think it isn't fair well sometimes love is and sometimes it's not sometimes we get in that moment and get caught.
Don't give up hope
I keep saying that I can't see you because of my mom and what she would have to go through I dream of meeting you even if we were just to be friends and no one really spends
the time with me that you do the way you say I love you so don't give up hope because someday we will meet and it will be my worst day that you made so sweet and please don't think that I am making icscuses not to see you because i'm not cause I want too so don't give up because that would break my heart and it's already bad that we're far apart so please grant this wish of mine don't give up hope.
The right time
is when you hold me in your arms and say that you love me it's when you ask me if I want a cup of tea it's you staring into my eyes it's you giving me a surprise it's when you make me cry because of how nice you are it's when you say i'm a star it's when you get me a gift when i've had a bad day and I just love the way you say "I love you".
Young girl
young girl don't cry because someday you will fly and you wont be so confussed with all of these feelings that you're having and you'll be off laughing and don't be too sad and down and don't keep that frown because you look prettier with a smile and though that feeling you had will stay there for a while don't be sad be glad and happy that your loved.
Christmas time is here
Christmas time is here and it's time for laughter and cheer it's time for that one kiss you've been waiting for so....go ahead and open the door the snow is such a beautiful sight so just hold me tight but some of us don't have that one person too kiss under the mistletoe and some of us know and for some of us the holidays are so stresful so....just be careful
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Post by Death Soldier on Dec 27, 2003 14:47:51 GMT 10
I think your poems are pretty fun to read. Most of them are short, and rythm..
I was wondering..why you didn't give this poem a title? or did you do it deliberatly? Is the title of this poem "no title?"
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Post by ~Shy Kitten~ on Dec 27, 2003 15:13:34 GMT 10
well I just couldn't think of a name for it actually^_^;; so when ever I can't think up a name for a poem I just right no tittle
And I fell for you
I let myself believe a lie and you've made it to where i'd cry and you said you loved me but that was a lie aswell and I guess it was my fault that I fell that I fell for you and who I thought I knew instead I just lay here crying and confussed because of you you were so different back then but now your hanging out with your men and telling them the secrets that I told you yet what did I do I did not deserve that and yet you talked behind my back I kept your secrets to myself And I feel for you.
Why fall in love?
why fall in love all it does is make you believe a lie and for someone to make you cry it makes your heart hurt with so much pain and it's like your the shirt and they're the stain so why fall in love it only causes stress and to tell you the truth I would like less so why fall in love?
The Hole in my heart
their is this hole in my heart and theirs someone who's ripped and torn it apart now it aches in pain and soaking in shame yet why would you care you wouldn't even share your feelings with me and I just wish that you would have seen how much I liked and loved you ofcourse you never knew what to do I just want you to know that you are the reason for the hole in my heart.
I don't want to fall in love again
I don't want to fall in love again because this is now and that was then every time any guy says they love me I believe them and then don't see yet I spill my heart out for them so I guess my chances with love are slim and as the years go by I will probably cry because I don't want to fall in love again.
The Santa hat
for years I have wanted one and I used to have none but now it has brought me laughter and joy and it could or could not be better than a toy so I ask a girl who is away at her job if she may show me where they're santa hats so that my heart will throb with joy and excitement and so she gives me hers not even costing a cent so I come home with tears in my eyes because of this joyus surprise I put it on and feel happy and glad for this was not a moment to be sad for this was the day that I got my first santa hat and that was that.
All I want for Christmas
all I want for Christmas is to be in your arms and for you to put on your charms and I sit and I wait never knowing wether or not to go on a date I might want a CD or 2 but all I want for Christmas is you.
I Wonder
I wonder if you ever think of me or if your so blind you cant see I think about old times between you and I and it was as clear as the sky that I needed to dump you their was nothing else to do and I wonder if you still care or if it's just to much to share I wonder if we will ever meet again but yes this is now and that was then and I wonder.
I'm Me
i'm fat, i'm thin i'm 14, i'm 10 I get picked on, I get pushed I get sad and I get flushed i'm scared i'm sad i'm here alone without a dad i'm hungry i'm lost i'm poor looking at shoes I want that cost i'm selfesh i'm greedy i'm all that I can be i'm emotional and i'm crying i've been hurt and i'm dying i've cried millions of times and I like to write rymes i'm stupid yet I dream and right now theirs alot of steam inside my heart and in my head and as I lay here in my bed because of something I said i'm feeling down and right now I have a frown and as I have a tear running down my cheek I feel so sad and weak to say anything at all cause i'm me and only me so why did I fall in love with you?
Your lips against mine
i'm needing you now so very much enough to where I need your lips to touch the taste of your mouth is so sweet that I dream of the day that we will meet and as my dress drops to the floor I then ask for more and more your hands on my back is so nice that this is something I want twice and right now I need your lips against mine because at the end of it all i'm fine right in your arms, just thinking about what we have just done and me knowing that you are the one and when i'm with you I want to be so bad instead of being sad and as your fingers go through my hair and this is something that I bare infront of you for this night because your holding me so right and all I want right now is your lips against mine.
Don't walkaway
don't walk away and don't turn around please don't stay and listen to my voice as it makes this sound don't look at me and don't go yet I nee you to for this is how it's ment to be and for me not to glow and don't not think about me just open your eyes and see what happened just now but why? and how? just don't walk away from what we had and when I was with you, you made me so sad and you will alway have a place in my heart even though we have fallen apart and I would say sorry for breaking your heart but it doesn't look that way because love was something I ment to say unlike you.
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Post by Chibi Jen on Dec 27, 2003 16:11:18 GMT 10
'And I fell for you' is such a sad poem.... that guy is so mean He's so slack..... I can understand how you might have felt... very well written. What I find interesting about your poems are that most of the seem rhetorical, and yet it still works out. For example the poem, "Why fall in love?" . It's interesting what you express, and yet- you know the answer to it ^_^ Are you trying to emphasize the point that there is a reason, or are you trying to seem angry, and shouting out these frustrations?
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Post by ~Shy Kitten~ on Dec 29, 2003 9:17:33 GMT 10
well both actually. see when I write poems of any kind I just do whats ever in my mind or something....it's kinda hard to explain, it's like it's just my mind goes blank and I don't know why I wrote it but then again I do you know....it's really hard to explain but on that one poem it was both of those. that their is a reason for falling in love and it's a mixture of hurt from love and then being in love and stuff like that so....but now that I have read it again it's more of like a shouting out my feelings but not it's like why fall in love when all thats gonna happen is your gonna get hurt but it's like asking the reader or someone why fall in love when all you'll do is get hurt from it but the person might say something like"well....love is good and love is bad" you know or something like that
oh listen to me going on and on sorry ^_^;;
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Post by Chibi Jen on Dec 29, 2003 9:26:51 GMT 10
well both actually. see when I write poems of any kind I just do whats ever in my mind or something....it's kinda hard to explain, it's like it's just my mind goes blank and I don't know why I wrote it but then again I do you know....it's really hard to explain but on that one poem it was both of those. that their is a reason for falling in love and it's a mixture of hurt from love and then being in love and stuff like that so....but now that I have read it again it's more of like a shouting out my feelings but not it's like why fall in love when all thats gonna happen is your gonna get hurt but it's like asking the reader or someone why fall in love when all you'll do is get hurt from it but the person might say something like"well....love is good and love is bad" you know or something like that oh listen to me going on and on sorry ^_^;; Nono.. that's quite interesting you know ^_^ Yes..I guess you're right..it does have a mixture of both frustrations that just come out from your mind, and questions with obvious reasons. *pats Shy on the back* I understand.
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Post by ~Shy Kitten~ on Dec 29, 2003 11:04:37 GMT 10
haahaa thank you^^your so cool
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Post by ~Shy Kitten~ on Dec 30, 2003 14:16:56 GMT 10
(No tittle)
you don't call you don't write and it feels like we're in a fight but hey no one's perfect and i'm lonely without you and I don't know what to do I crave for your attention and for some reason it feels like i'm in detintion I miss your voice and how we used to laugh on the phone and now I feel so alone I sit here waiting for you to call or write and then i'm always so sad at the end of the night they say that I need to stop this well I say love is bliss yet I fall into it so easily.
Stuck
i'm stuck in the middle of something little how can she find her self in all of this and this saddness wont be something she'll miss but how do you find your self if you don't know where to start when her heart has been torn apart she takes a deep breath to find that maybe she can do this after all and maybe this time she wont fall.
The Way I am
I turned you away because of fear and it seems like i've known you for a year you put out your heart to me and I pushed it away because I did not see that love was there and it's still here but how can I say it without sheding a tear but when I read your letters my heart pounds deeply as if something is happening to me you said we were soulmates and you still think that and when i'm down you give me a pat and when i'm crying it's your shoulder I lean on and i've put myself down for so long and I fall in love to fast yet you think i'm perfectin every way even though we've never really met you seem to love me so much enough to where you would want to touch yet how can I go on i'll just have to be strong
you don't know me but i'm the girl who falls to easily but you don't care because you choose not to see I have my stupid moments too like if it's something stupid that I do cause thats just the way I am.
You were never here
your body's here but not you give e a little but then alot my heart hurts deep inside but you....you go run and hide your never here when I need you and the way I felt was so true
you were never here even though you were always near I gave you all I had even when times were bad but you always pulled away and I could just not stay my blanket gave me more warmth that you could and I wondered if you ever would but now time has passed and my depression can not last
I shared secrets with you and you did too by a little with me but you were so blind to see what you had all this time but now I am fine.
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Post by Chibi Jen on Jan 1, 2004 14:05:19 GMT 10
It was interesting to see you suddenly use 'third person' view in some of your poems. . . Pretty good effort... I don't know how you can come up with so many poems, most of which are closely linked, yet different.
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Post by Death Soldier on Jan 19, 2004 12:06:43 GMT 10
Interesting poems Shy Kitten. Keep up the great work.. your poems all have a nice tune to them, which makes them enjoyable to read! Keep writing!
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Post by ~Shy Kitten~ on Jan 19, 2004 16:37:08 GMT 10
Just not enough
am I not enough for you is it the things I do but you just weren't enough for me and i'm sorry it had to be this way but theirs nothing you can say you had the looks but no feeling and this relationship has no meaning so it's time to say goodbye or good day and then i'll be on my way will you run after me or will you think "oh finnaly i'm free" will you miss me now that i'm gone probably not cause you were always wrong for me and my life and what I had in it even though you made me feel like sh*t now i'm lonely and sad and I feel alone and bad and hopefully these thoughts of you will leave my head and hopefully I find a better guy instead.
Just to be with you
I want to run away with you I want to show you what I can do and if we were never to see eachother again well baby that would be then i've had my heart broken and you've been waiting for me to open my heart to you and baby that I just can't do at least not just yet so give me some time because I want you to be mine
because just to be with you in your arms holding me tight just to be with you everything would be alright.
Show Me
show me you care show me that your fair show me what you mean when you say ok give me a reason to stay show me how you feel inside instead of pushing them back and making them hide show me your love and attention show me why you liked me back then call me on the phone instead of me feeling all alone.
Am I free
I need to talk to him but I can't and now my heart feels as small as an ant I need to be single for now but once I hear your voice it's like pow right to my heart and tears fall down my cheek because i'm still weak you were my first love and i'll just have to let you go but am I free?
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He puts his mouth on her neck because theirs not a second to waist and he's liking the taste he takes off her shirt and undoes her skirt she nibbles on his ear with no sign of fear she puts her fingers through his hair for this night are they're body's time to share.
Dance for me
your across the room staring at me am I something you like to see you come over to me and take my hand and now I can hardly stand then we go out on the floor and you put your hands on my hips then I taste your lips so just dance for me and then we'll see so just dance for me.
Lets go
i've got my girls and you've got your boys i've got my moves and you've got your toys so listen you wanna go lets go you want a show lets show what we can do so lets go cause i'm ready for you
you think you've won my heart when you still have to start you do your lines and I do mine because right now i'm feeling fine
but as you do your moves like that in your black suit and black hat we laught at you like you laugh at us but don't worry we won't cuss
so lets go oh oh i'll show you what i've got and you know that I just can't stop so lets go.
Stay Away
so many years of your hurtful goodbyes and so many years of your stupid little lies all the hurt you left with my brothers and me I deserve to be angry
where were you when my brother got his first car were were you when I got my first scar What is it that we did was it because I was a kid but it's too late for i'm sorry because now i'm angry because your never going to be my dad not now not ever I bet you forgot my name is Heather all the times I wanted to call someone my daddy you were never there when I wanted you to be and when I walk down that isle in my white dress you wont be there and i'll just like you less I don't even love you and your so not true I look at your picture and wish I was never your daughter and this list just get longer I look in the mirror and see parts of you in me and I can't say most this because you wont see plus you'll think it's moms fault when it's not i've been taught i'm not the little girl you left on her birthday 6 years ago so leave my mind, my memories, my dreams, and my thoughts and stay away for good.
Trust me
take my hand and don't ask questions just understand I want to scream and shout and I also want to pout just hold me for this one night and keep me safe and tight I feel alot of pain and my life is caught in the wrong lane trust me this isn't something I wannt to be let me out i've had enough because I am not that tough trust me.
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I imagion us walking down the street and of how we would meet you take my hand and we swing our hands back and fourth having fun and I wish for this day not to be done because their may be something that you have won I smile at you then you smile at me then we both agree that this day is gonna be so good.
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Post by Chibi Jen on Jan 20, 2004 9:15:37 GMT 10
Hey Shy Kitten, these poems are very emotional. I donno.. maybe it was because I was listening to 'Scarlet' -a very sad song as I was reading it.. but I think it's actually your poems.
I quite liked 'Just not enough', because it tells us of a story, yet it has meaning. The ryhming didnt make it sound that bad and I think it was quite sad.
I think the one which hit me most was 'Stay Away'. I think it was very powerful the way you expressed your feelings... it conveys your anger, frustrations, disappointments and sorrow. Even though I haven't been in such a situation *touch wood*.. I can empathise with you, which makes it very good. I hope your relationship with your father will hopefully mend together in the future. You never know.. maybe a miracle will happen, and you and your dad could find a way to. Although you express such anger, I can see a degree of love for him. I think deep inside you, you still love him a lot. I'm sure you wish you could call him your daddy. Hope everything works out.. *Hugs*
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~Shy Kitten~
Shining Chibi
/%%/--I'm in love and lovin' it=^_^=/%//%/%--Singing,Writing poems,ect./%/
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Post by ~Shy Kitten~ on Jan 21, 2004 6:32:49 GMT 10
thank you*huggles*
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the piano plays in the background and it makes such a sad sound just how feel when I hear your voice it's hard trying to be single when I want so bad to mingle and i'm going to need to stay single for some time now even if I feel this way and I cry and mope all day the sound of your voice echo's in my head leaving me lifeless and dead.
Passing By
She watches as her life passes her by and day by day she wonders why she looks at all the children and the jobs that have been achieved then she looks back at all the love she didn't receive all the hurt and pain within her heart is going to tare her apart.
In Love Instead
I like the way he grooves and he really likes my moves what is this feeling coming over me is it something that we're too blind too see he touches my hand and I fall down he picks me up then I lose my frown it's amazing what your doing to me because I feel so free in my heart and in my head i'd rather be in love instead.
My rain clouds
their are rain clouds above me and they rain when I cry but why my world gets wet at times and thats when I turn to these rymes am I not good enough? am I not pretty enough? and I guess my heart can not be tough is this what I have to go through cause tis is something I can probably do or not it depends on wether who loses and who wins.
She dreams
She dreams about being with him and what it would be like to be one of them she dreams about having a child and having her husband beside her and she also wishes for a cure for the sadness she has at times and why she crys and maybe she's 14 or 11 maybe tomorrow she'll go up to heaven.
Promises
why did it wind up this way why couldn't you just stay something to keep us together because it's like i'm on a roallarcoaster and you made so many promises too and yes I miss you
but don't you see that I was there it wasn't fair your promises broke like you broke my heart and i'm not gonna be pushed around like a cart
but what did I do was I not new anymore this pain sinks down to the core but i'm getting better and I don't need you and I know what I have to do.
Don't leave me
don't leave me here I need your shoulder to cry on your eyes look into mine and they shine you've given me your heart and placed it in my hands and I just hope he understands that I love him and i'm just not ready and it's my face that he wants to see but even if he can't see my face he likes me for me and whats on the inside but right now my feelings need to hide and we may have to stay as friends for a long time but he doesn't care as long as he's with me and as long as he's mine it's not fair to him that I have to be this way but he knows i'll stay so don't leave me at this time and day and moment.
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it's so hot in here and right now I have no fear but it's so hot and I need some air but don't stop cause we're almost there your hands rubing against my back I throw your coat on the rack as we're having a good time I think up this ryme the sweat from your head drops onto my chest so just give me the rest as I moan for you you do something that you do you take off my shirt as your other hand reaches for my skirt the touch of your hand on me is so relaxing but it's something that we're doing this may be a dream but it also might not I just hope we don't get caught give me a sec to breath but don't leave cause right now this is feeling so good ofcourse it should so don't stop and keep going cause we're almost done and it's better than having none and I can feel you breath on me as you put your hand on my knee.
Tears in his eyes
I watch him cry everyday but this time should I stay I go over to him and try to understand so I then touch his hand I see that he has tears in his eyes but I guess all of those rumores about him were just lie's he tell's me why he crys day after day so then I say "i'm sorry about what happened to you" but then he says theirs nothing I can do he gets up from his chair and says life isn't fair so as he walks away I grab his wrist and I say I understand what he's going through but it's such a long list he says that she wasn't ment to die so then I see him cry he then hugs me and tells me that he is sorry for this must be boring to me and it must be waisting my time I then say no you didn't I was just wondering why you would sit there and cry but now I know why you've gone through 2 deaths and 4 breakups but then I think of something that could cheer him up some tea with a friend like me then he became somewhat happy.
This world
I grew up as a little girl in this painful world when I turned 9 my father left me and now he is something I wish not to see this world can give you love but then can take it away so how come you couldn't stay but you did go up to heaven where you belong and the day of your death has stayed with me for so long.
Why play with my heart
you liked me from the start so why play with my heart stop playing these games with me just open your eyes and see your losing me and i'll be gone and maybe for long so please atleast cry for me or something cause right now the time is dying i'm always calling you why can't you pick up the phone well now your all alone I tried to be there but you just didn't care.
Why do you hurt me
Why do you hurt me why do you kill me now I have so much pain and your all to blame I hate you
I hear your voice echoing inside my head are you hurting now cause i'm hurting over something that you said and I can not take it and I can not break it anymore I fall to the floor
wanting to scream over a dream that I had for you and I you make me want to cry and it isn't even fair that you don't even care
why hurt me why kill me I have so much pain am I all to blame so take this away I don't want you to stay leave me alone and don't even call me on the phone
cause I cannot take it and I cannot escape it cause now i'm lying on my bed thinking what did I do was that something I should have said
but how come you hurt me so and how come you make me feel low so go on break my heart you've already worn it out and torn it apart but it's not fair crying these tear that I do and it's not fair when i'm crying because of you so leave me leave me lying here on my own and i'll just die here while your on your thrown.
Give me wings
give me wings so I can fly let me hold you and then say goodbye
let me wipe the tears from your face and enjoy this moment as i'm in your warm embrace
show me what it means to be loved hold me deeply then take me above
so give me wings so I can fly but when I come back then I will stay.
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